告诉自己，再也不做等待的那个。

她。

她其实有点懒　喜欢赖床
她其实不太乖　喜欢捣蛋

她在陌生人面前会很安静很冷漠
在熟人面前却很放肆很霸道
并喜欢没形象的哈哈大笑
不要认为她很粗鲁
她只是很单纯的认为
大家打打闹闹骂骂笑笑
表示更亲切更不分你我

她独立也好强
她宁愿忍受太多的寂寞和痛苦
也不愿意向别人提起
她也会偶尔的忧郁
朋友问她怎么了
她也只会说没事

其实
她只是感觉累了
她只是需要一个拥抱
其实骨子里
渴望有一个避风港湾
让她去依靠
但她不会承认

她必须确定
那个人是否可以承受得了这一切
承受她的撒娇　她的无理取闹
她的倔强　她的悲观
她所有的性格缺陷
且永远不离不弃

只有这样
她才放心
放心去继续做自己
不会害怕有一天将要面对失去

如果没有
那么她只好继续寂寞和孤独
她对爱情没有安全感
也不会给别人安全感
她爱不起更怕伤害

她失恋的时候
会在别人面前装的很好
大声的笑　放声的闹
当姐妹心疼的说：
“你没事吧?”
她会放下她所有的骄傲
趴到姐妹怀里哭
哭完了苦笑一声：
“没想到我还会为这个男人哭”

她从来不会在情人面前大声哭泣
除非她真的崩溃了
即使在你爱着她的时候
她也会胡思乱想让自己悲伤
如果你看到她的眼泪
请相信这绝不是她在博取同情
这是内心骄傲的女子不得己的场景

她想对你负责
同时也希望你对她负责
对自己的过去和未来负责
但请你不要轻易给她承诺和誓言
她很难相信
即使她很难相信
但她还是会选择等待

若她喜欢上你
请你不要在她的世界里消失
她没有更多的要求
不会打扰你的生活
她只是想静静的看着你
当你的观众
仅此而已

她的伤初始浓烈似酒
很快就会变为一杯水
却让水渗入生活成为点点滴滴
她选择在其中淡定
在其中沉默和内伤

她就是这样
强势　霸道　任性
不会讨人欢心
死要面子

她善变
最耐不住寂寞
却又喜欢假惺惺的
让自己一个人呆着

有时候她又充满阳光的气息
爱笑爱说话
活蹦乱跳　可爱迷人
她很自私
只愿意与人同甘
不愿意让别人跟她共苦

她习惯在人前表现的很坚强
一副大女子主义的模样
她会想
遇到真正懂她爱她宠她的人
她就一定会很安静
心甘情愿的安静下来
不烦不闹　按时吃饭睡觉
按时做一切
能安心和他一起做的事情

她从不轻言爱
她的爱很沉默
那并非是因为她缺少那份勇气
在她的心里有一道栅栏
那就是自尊
她看得比生命更尊贵的自尊
她会在真正爱她的人面前
卸掉所有的盔甲和伪装
做个幸福的小女人

她不要求你要做什么
不会无理取闹要你陪着她
她有自己的生活
她给你空间
因为她也需要空间

她在你面前永远性感调皮
偶尔撒撒娇
跟你玩陌生人的游戏
在你的朋友面前从来大方得体
微笑的依偎在你身边

她不让你给她买这买那
但是心里却会为你私自买给她的礼物
而暗自开心
因为她觉得那是你的宠爱

她在意的是你的心
你若真心
她必然实意
最起码
你表现的真心
能让她感觉得到

这样的她
只有懂她的人才会得到她的好
如果你没有绝对的真心
请别爱她
因为她最怕没安全感
害怕失去平衡

Months Passed...

Life is still good =)

We've made it!

It seems only yesterday when I just got into the secondary school.

This ends our 10 years' relationship of being schoolmates.

*mixed feelings*

To view other photos:-

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150860650350537.741624.827025536&l=f3d8d9faf1&type=1

R.I.P Jobs

Although I do not know him personally, I feel that there's still a need to mourne for a few minutes since the Apple products have brought so much fun to my life. Hopefully Apple can still remain as a legacy without Jobs.

In Graduation Robe

Her Convocation!
她的毕业典礼！

8 October 2011 （Saturday）
2011年10月8日 （星期六）
5pm，DTC University of Malaya

It would be great if you can make it ^^
能来的话，最好不过了 =)

Nasi Lemak 2.0, production by Namewee



I gotta admit that I don't usually watch locally produced movie in the cinema.
This movie, Nasi Lemak 2.0 was the first!
It is not an action movie, or romance, or horror, not the usual kind that you'll spend a few bucks to watch on the big screen.

Not knowing the reason, I have some kind of excitement before the movie is officially out.
I was kinda looking forward to the movie. Lucky enough, I manage to drag my best old friend along and laugh like nobody business throughout the whole movie. (although she doesn't seems to be really enjoy it)
Anyway, to understand the jokes in the movie, you would probably need some understanding on Malaysia's culture, and also some foul words. Haha

Oh btw, my chinese surname was widely publicized in the movie (finally!)
Hopefully this movie can save me some trouble from explaining on how to write my surname in future? Lol.

So, why not spare some time for this and have a good laugh? After all, its just a few bucks =)
http://www.nasilemak2.com/

勇气需要坚持， 坚持需要挫折， 挫折需要逃避。 所以在鼓起勇气前，需要先学会逃避。 所以，逃避没有不好。

Live with No Regrets

Just got to know that one of my primary school classmate had passed away last year due to cancer.
Although we did not keep in touch for years, it is still a shocking and sad news.

I still remember the days when both of us played the '5 stones' game together while waiting for our parents to fetch us. I even remember how both of us discuss our 'childhood boyfriends' and laughing together.

Once again, I realized how short life is and how important it is for us to treasure what we have now.
We have a lot of passers-by in our life, some stayed for a few seconds, some stayed longer.
No matter how short it is, by all means, enjoy that moment.
I live with this principle all the while. This works as a reminder for me, and I hope this works the same for all of you who read this too.

It is your birthday today. Enjoy your big day in heaven =)

Happy Birthday!

To the Whole World

七夕情人节快乐 =)

Vancancy Filled

Started my first day of work in Citibank Malaysia as a DM business analyst.
This decision was made after going through some really deep thoughts.

Having a Singaporean father and a sister currently working in S'pore brings another kind of pressure while searching for the first official job. Needless to say, half of my family relatives are Singaporeans. Most of my friends are earning S$. The good thing is, you'll receive pocket money in S$. The bad thing is, the elderly will convert your salary gained into S$. That makes a lot more difference.

I guess this is the most common dilemma faced by many recent graduates as well.
Many choose to leave Malaysia to start off their career.
Brain drain issue remain as a major problem.

Today, I took the step of giving up a highly-paid position.
Critiques are heard, pressures are suffered.
Hopefully I made the right choice.

Wear a Condom, in time

I heard a story recently, somehow it inspired me to write it down.
I think it plays as a strong reminder to us, Malaysians, who are always perceived as narrow-minded people, which is totally true.

A young girl who just graduated, was found to be pregnant.
Marriage was forced to be done with the yet-to-be-born-baby`s father.
As everyone in the family were rushing to finish off the wedding, the bride`s younger sister was found to be pregnant too.
To make things worse, the younger sister is already 6-months pregnant, while the elder sister was only 4 months. (You got my point right?)
Imagine the reaction of the mother, who happened to be on a divorce procedures with her husband.
Maybe just to make things a little bit clearer, that girl was only 17 years old, dating with a younger boyfriend who is still studying.

So who`s fault is this?
I`m not trying to put the blames on anyone, just to point out the fact that we`ve really overlooked many things when everyone else on the planet is already stressing a lot on birth-control.

How many parents would tell their children to take safety measures while having sex?
In contrast, how many parents are actually telling their children NOT to have sex?

Let`s just put this in another way.

Did you tell your son to get himself a condom and remind him to put it on whenever need arises?
Or, did you tell your daughter NOT to let her boyfriend unwrapped her?
(hopefully I did not make it sound too horny)

I once heard from some Dutch friends that, their parents would actually tell their son where they keep the condoms. Just in case they need it, it is there!

I`m not trying to urge you to be as open-minded as them (as that would take centuries to happen), nor am I trying to encourage to sex-before-marriage or whatever you call it.

It`s just that parents have to start changing their way of educating.
Would they actually listen to you DON`Ts? Obviously, you know they don`t.
So, it`s time to change your strategy and start telling them the DOs.

Unless you would rather experience the situation where your daughter/son  coming back home one day and telling you she/his girlfriend is already pregnant for several months.

Just another remark.
If they inform you immediately after they knew it themselves, Congratulations! It shows that you`re still realible.
Otherwise, you just need to think over your role as a parent.

If you`re a parent reading this, start talking to your children but not forbiding them to do so.
Get a younger and closer relative to talk to them if you feel that you do not want to encourge them to have sex `indirectly`.

If you`re a attached guy/girl, for god`s sake, read up some safe-sex materials, it`s everywhere on the internet! (Some studies reveal that some undergrads are not even sure whether kissing can cause pregnancy)
Get yourself a condom.
Most importantly, wear it in time.
If you`re too shy/timid to buy it, for everyone`s sake, don`t have sex.

If you`re a unmarried youth who happen to be pregnant/suspicous of it, take up some courage and tell an adult. Admit it, you`re just too confused on what to do next all alone.
Not brave enough? Do a home-pregnancy-test by yourself, that thing won`t cost you more than RM10 in Guardian or Watsons.

Again, this post is merely aiming to encourage safe sex and reduce social problems.
It`s really annoying sometimes to see people continue to live in their own stubborn way of living.

Wear a condom, in time.

Guardian Angel

Received this as a souvenir from a friend who just came back from New Zealand.

It is wrapped in a box written ' Made in New Zealand, by Little Bird Studio'

Love this gift sooooo much!

*Highly recommended for those in NZ or going to travel in NZ*

iPad 2, followed by Pirates

I bought myself an iPad 2!
Got it on the first day it is launched in Malaysia, 29 April '11 (Fri).
4 hours of Q really pays off, not to mention that I was still in my exam week.

Anyhow, it just feels great to be blogging while lying on the bed.
I bought a wifi+3G 16GB black model, cost me RM 1899.
Why black instead of white? Simply because I think that photos look much great on a black iPad.

And... Guess what? The first 100 customers who visit Machines Sunway will get a free goodie bag.
I'm the 100th customer!!
Wow... I guess I have never been so lucky before.

Though the goodie bag is only consist of a water bottle, T-shirt and a notepad, it is just great to be rewarded by some surprises.

Another good news struck me just now, I won the 4 hr movie challenge organized by Stabilo.
This entitled me for 2 free movie tickets to watch Pirates of the Carribean in JB!

Sad to say, I haven't thought of anyone who can go with me for the 4 hrs movie.
My usual 'always-there-best friend' is gonna leave me for a honeymoon with her bf. Sigh.
Isn't it kinda sad to forgo that free movie?
It's even pathetic to watch a movie alone.
Hopefully I can get someone by that time.

Talking about Ice Blended Beverage, Starbucks is always the one!

I'm soooo gonna grab the Green Tea Frappuccino for the next two weeks!

or should I try a different Frapp for each day? =P

Part of my Life Chapter Comes to an End Today

Attended the final lecture class in my university life today.
It seems just like yesterday when we first entered the main gate of the campus. Time really flies. I'm still trying to insert the 'graduating soon' mind into my brain.

Although we've yet to sit for our final exam, you just got that feeling to shout out loud and say 'I'm going to graduate!
Guess it's just a mix of excitement and sadness.
We'll get that through!

As usual, people are bringing cameras to the faculty, hoping to capture as many memories as they can before leaving this place. So do I! =)

The swirling staircase that took almost all of our breath away when climbing.

It looks extremely beautiful when you're leaving. 

The stairs that we need to take to get to the car park.

The fallen leaves in the evening harmonizes this path.

Outdoor pic!

Seriously, our faculty is an awesome photo session venue.

Kudos to the 3 hardworking models of the day!

Not forgeting to mention our faculty's trademark - the Batu Caves Stairs.



P&G Business Challenge

I got into the P&G Business Challenge as one of the 30 Malaysia's finalists!
Initially I thought I'm going to miss the chance to take part in the challenge when the application is open (due to the fact that I'm too timid to take the risk of not graduating in time if I can't complete my thesis).
So ya, I did not submit my application as I do not want to affect my thesis progress.

But guess what? I got a call from the HR on a Friday, asking me to take part!
The fact is that there were two persons who pulled out from the challenge at the very last minute, so they're looking for new candidates who might be interested to join.
Of course, it is too late to just simply grab someone on the road. So they went into the database instead, looking for people who had passed the 'Reasoning Test' (I did it when I applied for their internship last year).
Somehow they saw my recent application for a full-time position in P&G Singapore and there it is!
I got the call!

It was a really tough decision at first.
Look, a call on Friday asking you whether you want to take part in a 4-days event starting on the following Wednesday WITH your thesis deadline approaching on the Friday? *faint*

Anyhow, I still need to go through two interviews to be qualified as one of the finalists.
So yup, after a really busy and packed weekend, I got the great news today!

I believe it would truly be an amazing experience as this is the last event that I can participate as a undergrad.
Wish me good luck!

*Crossing my fingers for thesis too*

All right, I know this shouldn't be happening on a young adult girl.
The total of my phone bill is less than RM3 for half a month?!
This is certainly the lowest rate I achieved in my whole life ever since I got my first cell at the age of 13.
As I'm using a postpaid plan, which made me pay a minimum of thirty even though I'm not anywhere near this amount, this is a bad bad bad news.
Sad-nya.... anyone out there, do feel free to ask me to call/sms you to pass time.
Feel free to waste my bill money (._.)

Up! uP! UP!

The 3rd International Hot Air Balloon Fiesta in Malaysia, Putrajaya

Up in the air!

Pilot from Japan

Managed to get there early enough to snap the way they set up the balloons, up-close!

Isn't this beautiful?

We spent RM10 to sit on a tethered one!

Models of the Day ^^


For more info, http://www.myballoonfiesta.com

Two more months, and I shall leave the school life with pride =]

少了观众的摄影师

最近拍的照片里，好像少了些什么。
色彩吗？笑容吗？
好像没有了灵魂，没有了故事。
怎么看都不满意。

纳闷了很久。。。

（翻过旧相簿，算算日子，二十分钟后。。。）

哦
原来，是少了观众。
少了分享的对象，就不知道故事该怎么拍了。
不知道要为谁而按下快门了。

原来，观众很重要。

就好像，对导演来说，观众很重要。
一部电影，是从观众的角度看待`感受，从而理解。
完美呈现，希望得到观众的掌声。
没有观众的导演，就无法对电影注入灵魂了。

这对摄影师来说，是一样的道理。

Everyone went, so did We

Yup, we went to the Jogoya Japanese Buffet Restaurant for the Buy 1 Free 1 Promotion.

As an Economist Student, we normally wouldn't missed this kind of 'economic' thingy. lol

The must-try-food, Haagen-Dazs Green Tea Ice Cream & Coconut

We sat between 'Believe' & 'Power'

Salmon Sashimi!!!!

Coming to think about it, it seems that I only lay my hands on the Sashimi & Ice Cream.

Oh ya, did I mention there were FORTY SIX of us?

The total bill amount was RM 2260.44

^o^

A Lesson Learnt

Its the International Women's Day.
Literally, it is meant to encourage women to be strong.
Yet, I discovered a shocking news today that would nearly destroy me and ruin my future.
Since its the day that meant for women to be strong, I would share my story here.
To mark as a lesson for myself, and a gentle reminder for others.

I was cheated by my ex-boyfriend all these while.
He has another girlfriend besides me being the one.
But this isn't the reason that we broke up.
I only discovered this afterwards.

Things hasn't been going quite well before the relationship end.
I sense something, but wasn't exactly quite sure what it is.
I thought he is just a little bit of uncaring, a little bit of careless and kinda busy.

There were a few times where I found the evidences.
Yes, evidenceS.
Well, I didn't take it as an evidence of cheating at that point of time.

The biggest mistake I've done is to trust him too much, to the extent of finding excuses for him when I found those evidences.
I even thought of a acceptable reason for him to acknowledge when I was confronting him.
He just has no reason to cheat on me, he's the loyalty kind, I thought.

But what's more, it is not the kind of story where we live happily and another girl came in.
It is a story of me being the third party. In the context of a traditional chinese couple family, I was the mistress that were kept nicely and secretly without the knowing of the wife.
And of course, without the knowing of the mistress too.

There were signals here and there, there were friends' kind reminders, there were families' warnings.
I was just too deep into it.
Coming to think of it, it all make sense now.
The small number of talks and communication, the refusal of him taking photo using his handphone, the intimate addressing of a unknown phone number as 'babe'.

But I just believe in all of his explainations in every single little thing.

I thought I was rasional that time, I though I was smart enough to differentiate lies and truth.
Eventually, it is never about rasionality or intelligence.
When someone has the intention to cheat, he'll just do everything that make sure you believe.
You'll never have a clear mind until the day he left your life.

So, widen up your eyes everyone. Not just girls, for guys too.
No gender differentiate in this.

What's more important, is to have the courage to walk out from the mess afterhand.
Its too silly to allow this kind of person to destroy your life.

Easier said than done.
I'm struggling to pull myself up too.
I have a thesis to complete in one month's time.
I've been 'grieving' for quite some time and now I'm taking the risk of not graduating in time because of all these mess.

Don't allow others to take advantage of your kindness.
When someone told you that you're considerate, you are.
When someone told you that you're reasonable, you are.
But don't ever let him use these characteristics to take control of you.

Sometimes, its good to bear the pain and let go.
Sometimes, its good to trust your own instinct for a while.

Like what I said, I sense something, but I wasn't quite sure what it is.
I just know this is not the relationship that I want. That's intinct.
It isn't telling me directly that he's cheating, but it do serve as a warning.

Then, I found out all the scandals after I walked away.
My instict is proven.

Can't get her hands off blogging.
She knows its not about the unstoppable typing, but memories.
不停地写日记，停不下来的不是手，而是记忆。

A Love Cupid?

I gotta admit, lots of people have been breaking-up lately.
I'm wondering whether its due to the high sensitivity of a 'recently broke up' girl, my instict is kinda accurate.

This is the time where you'll discover the power of Facebook again.
10 years ago, we just entered into the world of ICQ, emails etc etc.
Ways of spreading love is kinda rigid at that time.
10 years later, we have Facebook.
Dreams of girls? Nightmares of guys?

If you're having a FB account, you'll notice lots of girls LOVE to share some articles, love story, video... anything related to 'I hope my boyfriend know this'. And what's more?
They get to express some words that is difficult to say directly in real life. So this is where others' writings came into effect.
What will the boyfriends do? Read it. Understood it. 'Oh, so this is what girls want.'
They'll probably execute it for a short period. After that period? Share another story, and repeat it again.
Happy ending.
This is how couples nowdays enjoy the extra flirting and communication, using the technological-driven instrument.

What about those couples that don't have FB, or maybe one of them don't?
This is normally referring to guys, as I don't see girls will missed this platform of getting some fun.
So, no shared videos, no shared stories, no discussion.

But imagine this, girl A read something, somehow someway that thing touched her heart.
Boyfriend B don't see it. So tada! Arguements came in.
Guys will normally just give the 'all right, girls' thing again' expression.
Girls will scream aloud, 'are you thinking that I'm being unreasonable again?'

Typical case.

I'm not saying this is the factor that lead to breaking ups.

But its power in helping communication (if both utilised it in a good way), or rather, worsening relationship, is worth a thought.

她。和他

爱情来得太快 就像龙卷风
他的心有一道墙 但她发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
她太笨 明知道他是错的人
但是她还奋不顾身
情人总分分合合 可是他们却越爱越深
认识他 让她的幸福如此悦耳
能不能给她一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
只是想让她知道 只是想让他知道
爱的警告
如果能重来 诚实的去对待
彼此都没疑猜 就没有理由分开
他做了选择 对的错的
她只能承认 心是痛的
这段属于黑夜的爱情 注定要蒸发阳光底
两个世界的代表作品就是命运
只能说她输了 也许是他怕了
他们的回忆 没有皱褶
他们变成了世上 最熟悉的陌生人
离开他 她才找回自己 那爱笑的眼睛
再见到他 她一定让自己 假装很坚定
爱情走得太快 就像龙卷风
她不能再想 她不要再想他

Its simply awesome

I can hear Jay's singing from Bukit Jalil.
I believe I can xD

Time for Goodbye?

当我们的歌响起时，我才知道还没忘。

Its the last Sunday

We did an earlier celebration and farwell for jm.

The time has come for him to leave for work in Singapore.

So, we're going to lose one housemate and monthly rent income. =(

All the best to him!

Its too Bulky

and... YUP! I cut my hair today.
Its no longer 'long-haired' now, just shoulder length. =)

Lomo Lomo did the job!

I was having so much fun playing with sc's new iPod touch!

Yeah... the NEW one with additional function of camera & video which my iPod don't =(
Soooooo tempted to get the new iPod.

This is the one taken with the Lomo Lomo application.
My desk with all my needed things stacked aside.

I've removed my 100th post and this is the 101 post.
Just to make a remark since its such a significant number =)
Life is still good.
Anyway, I've jailbreak my iPod Touch! (finally) 

Frozen Chocolates

Dark chocolates and ice-cream doesn't seem to work the way they usually are.
I always love the moment of opening my fridge, which is always filled with different types of dark chocolates.
Grabbing a bite or two of it would certainly help to brighten up my day.
Yet, I couldn't stop staring at that two bars of chocolates received on Christmas Eve.

5 shots of Vodka doesn't erase memories.

Still, it doesn't feel good to see tons of couples lovey dovey on the streets on this Valentines's Day.

Sweet feeds on facebook are sweet, love declarations on radio are sweet.

Yet, it's too bitter for people who just lost their valentines.

Time, kindly fly at your maximum speed to end my naive hopes.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Captured this at a beachside of Langkawi. I wondered its a relaxing kind of way to have a sip of beer by the beach alone or it's just another troubled individual.

To Write or not to Write

Profesional blogger blogs to let the whole world read.

People who blog once in a while, like me, blog to let someone read.

When you knew that person is no longer following your blog, you lost the passion to write anymore.

Maybe, for a few seconds, you have that tiny hope that he/she will still drop by some day to read your previous posts. Your passion was lighten up, again, like now.

A friend of mine once told me we shouldn't blog of daily life, express anger or sadness via blog, its like exposing your inner thoughts to the whole world. This is too naked. And who knows, you'll might feel regret for writing those out of unstable emotion. You should blog to share your idea, give a different perspective on something or some issue. This is how we learn and this is what makes your blog worth a read.

I need to write for both. Its too suffering to keep everything to oneself without having a place to leave it.

Solution? One blog to share ideas, open for public, another blog to express anger/sadness, open for the sole writer only =)