Home Alone

Gonna be alone at home for 2 nights as my roomate went for honeymoon with her dear.

For god's sake, this is really scary and I can't stand the silence at night.

Seems like a lot of things will happen even before I know it.

It has been a long time since the last time I stay at home alone.

This made me recall back those days which is really heart-breaking.

At least I still had Bobby who will warn me for any unusual movements.

But now? Cooper will be the first to hide if anything happen.

Guess this is just the major difference between dogs and small animals.

Or is it just Bobby? Not that I want to brag.

Bobby is really a very intelligent friend and bodyguard.

Who else will hide together with you when the thunder strikes?

Who else will sleep with you late at night when nobody else is at home?

Who else will stay with you when you're really afraid, especially when your father is drunk terribly?

Sometimes I would still wonder, was it a wrong decision?

Was it my faulth for not giving him a second chance to live?

Late night + alone is the perfect combination to make one emo huh.

Let's just be friends?

Went for a date tonight.

A bit of window shopping, dinner Wendy's & movie 'Knight & Day'.

Well... Techinically speaking, its not too bad.

The movie saves the night??

Frankly speaking, the chemistry did not spark, at least from my side.

Most of the time, I'm thinking of the other guy.

'If its him, he would definitely do so & so.....'

Guess its not so right to do so huh.

I'm not that kind girl who just want to play with relationship.

Seriously, I'm still looking for the Mr Right.

That's why I agreed to the date.

As what my brother said: "Just take this as a chance to meet a new friend", right?

Its just that more time is needed to fade out the last ' heart triggered' feelings.

Come on, do something to impress me and make me wonder, "Why Not?"

Otherwise, with the current situation, the end sentence would be:

"Let's just be friends." =)

Worst thing to say: I don't wish to talk about it.

Dear roomate and roomate's bf, Treasure what you have for now. You're lucky to have each other. The best antidote is to solve it once for all by just talking to each other. Blaming each other is just making the situation worse. Stop digging up the past but start creating the future =)

Cooper - the succesor of Bobby

Its almost one month since the day I got Cooper. From a tiny, timid, body full of injuries Guinea Pig, Cooper has turned into a plump, healthy and active cavy. Seeing him lying on my lap comfortably and munching apple at the same time, I can't hide my feelings of satisfaction and how glad am I to take him back. This is a 'meant to be' fate I guess. There are so many common points between the two of them to the extent that I started to regard him as the new life of Bobby. Perhaps this is not the way to think as I don't think Cooper would like the idea of being compared to others as well =P Anyway, I'm writing this to remember the current feeling, hoping to have Cooper by my side for the maximum time.

Back to work

Helped out in NATCON during the whole 3 off days. Finally, today gotta leave there and get back to work.

Nothing really troubles me at work, as I really like the work. Its just bit of lonely feeling where you leave the place where you can have lots of people to talk to. Not customers or collegue, its just mere ordinary persons same as you, same age, status, have a common topic.Probably the power of organizing & planning the whole event gave some sort of satisfaction as well.

Guess I'm just too lonely & need people to talk to.

I need someone who can really listen to me, only.

Prison Break~!!

When i arrived at the shop entrance early in the morning, the first thing I noticed, one Angora rabbit is nowhere to be found in it's display 'cage'. o_O In fact, it was happily hopping around in the shop. Guess what? It's not alone. Another Netherland Dwarf is following side by side.

说了再见，好久不见

“天凉了 雨下了 你走了 清楚了 我爱的 遗失了 落叶飘在湖面上睡着了 想要放 放不掉 泪在飘 你看看 你看 看不到 我假装过去不重要 却发现自己办不到 说了再见才发现再也见不到 我不能就这样失去你的微笑” “你的笑 你的好 脑海里一直在绕 我的手 忘不了 你手的温度” “我对天空这个那个流星 大喊后会不会有奇迹 就算做朋友也没关系 为你改变了自己都不认识自己” Quoted from Jay Chou's 跨时代

The not so 'Glory' part

The 'not so proud' part of working in a pet shop is to see the animals dying day by day. Most of the mornings will start with issuing 'death certificate' for them. To worsen the snenario, some were injured in a fight and bleeding like hell. You would never want to see their injured parts if you're a pet lover, no matter in what kind of animal. The saddest moment is to see them struggling and suffered but we can't do anything. Today, a hamster - common djengarian is injured. The situation reminds me of Bobby. Even a small animal would fight to keep on living, why not human beings? Right now, the hamster is still struggling to live on. Hope that he/she will make it. Bless you.

Enjoying current work, irritated by previous works

Working in a pet shop is one of the goal that I had years ago.

Never expect it to be realized now.

Tiring yet enjoying the moments when the small animals seems to understand who you are.

Irritation still exists. Not by the current works, but the previous responsibilities where people will only approach you whenever problem arises.

The irritation has become so strong that made me avoiding reading the emails for weeks.

Phew~

How I wish I can just shout at them and say:" You did not pay to hire me, do not take me as a person who work for you." (in a polite way, with a smile ^^)

Another door

Guess I should start blogging again instead of keeping all the things in my i-Pod =)

Lots of things to write but I'm not sure how much do I want people to see them.

Been thinking a lot lately and realized that I've been losing too much things as I always keep my thoughts within myself.

Undeniable, his departure is a turning point for me. The result is no longer important.

The current situation is enough and I believe this is the best way it should be.

Spent no time to probe over the pasts but move on.

This is not about giving up or letting go, this is about opening a new door and believing this door will lead to a longer and infinity path.

I believe it will.